They held each other's hands and clung tightly to the one hope
they have left. Somewhere, they believed, their little girl
was safe. Somewhere, Madeleine was being looked after.
Eleven days on, Kate and Gerry McCann summoned the strength
to block out the unthinkable in this endless, fruitless
search for their four-year-old daughter.
Then they shared their hope with the rest of the world - and told
how they could not even consider going home until Madeleine
is found.
By the time Mr McCann had finished speaking his knuckles were
white in his wife's constant grip. His voice was beginning
to falter and his eyes were screwed shut against the
blinding sun.
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Determination is etched into the
faces of Gerry and Kate McCann as they cling to
each other and to hope |
But he was determined to stay in front of the cameras until he
was sure he had got his message across. Until he and his
wife saw "concrete evidence to the contrary", he said, they
would continue to believe that Madeleine was "safe and being
looked after".
A few hours before last night's dramatic developments, anyone who
wondered how this once-happy mother and father have been
coping with what happened had only to share these few
minutes with them.
They have become familiar faces in the cobbled streets of Praia
da Luz and their appearance never fails to invite respect,
sometimes applause, as they make their way silently and
privately around the Algarve resort.
This was different, though. They were in command now and they
were about to change the rules. Scores of distraught parents
might have touched hearts with TV appeals over the years,
but few have conducted themselves like the McCanns.
From the depths of despair - and from a tragedy that was visibly
destroying them day by day - they emerged to take control.
Not just of their emotions, but of the way they will now
proceed at this crushingly-difficult time.
The
McCanns have sworn not to leave Portugal until they find
their missing daughter Madeleine. Friends and family believe
they will keep their word
A few
moments before 8am, they strode side by side into the
sunlight to stand within yards of the apartment from which
Madeleine disappeared on May 3.
Hand in
hand, they ducked under the police tape which still seals
the area, and steeled themselves to face an audience which,
they knew, would be watching around the world.
Mr McCann
carried some handwritten notes but barely even glanced at
them. In his role as a consultant cardiologist he must have
prepared countless patients and relatives for difficult
news, and he spoke with a clarity and straightforwardness
which seemed almost professional. But bad news can never
have been as hard as this, and certainly never so personal.
He told
us how he and Kate, who are Roman Catholics, had drawn
strength from the "spiritual outpouring" which continues to
flood over them from family, friends, strangers and
supporters.
Mr McCann
candidly admitted that he and his wife, a GP, were
deliberately ignoring the negative to concentrate on the
positive.
They had
been counselled by a trauma specialist, who, he said,
"enabled us to utilise tools to help us look forward, to try
to put the speculation out of our heads and channel
everything into looking forward".
How were
they coping? "It's been extremely difficult," he replied,
with unintentional understatement. But the support they were
receiving - and the fact that lawyers had now arrived to
handle the everyday mechanics - had suddenly lifted a great
burden. It had allowed them to focus, he said, "on our own
physical and mental well-being, and that of our family".
The strain has worked visible change on both Madeleine's parents,
but Kate McCann
in particular has appeared at times almost unable to stand -
until yesterday
We already had a flavour of how difficult that has been, and how
heart-rending. The couple's two-year-old twins, Sean and
Amelie, wave at the TV when pictures of their sister appear,
and blow kisses at the posters which bear her image in every
street and restaurant around the busy resort. Kate McCann is
still buying treats for them in threes - three rag dolls,
three ice creams ... and is seldom seen without
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Kate McCann is still buying
treats for them in threes - three rag dolls,
three ice creams |
Madeleine's favourite cuddly toy, often pressing it softly to her
cheek. The first few days transformed the 38-year-old blonde
from a happy, laughing mother in those family pictures to a
gaunt, haunted figure who could not bring herself to eat or
even sleep while her little girl was missing.
Yesterday, however, she appeared to have found renewed strength.
Her head wasn't bowed now and her voice was clear. Someone
asked how long she would stay in Portugal. "I can't even
consider going home at the moment," she said. "Absolutely
can't even let it enter my head."
Whatever happened over the weekend, and whatever help the trauma
specialist offered, she was clearly fortified.
Back home in England, Madeleine's aunt Philomena McCann said:
"They are being counselled on what to do for the good of
their health, and that's helping them get through. But the
couple are strong and have strength of character that is not
apparent on a day-to-day basis. Kate is very strong. She
will not give up - she will pursue Madeleine for ever if
need be."
The previous 24 hours certainly seemed to be a turning point -
you got the impression for the first time that they had been
able to step back a little from the tragedy engulfing them,
and to plan a strategy for survival.
The
change in the McCanns from an earlier press conference last
week was notable
Perhaps
that is not surprising. In their jobs back home they are
both used to organising people, taking the lead, and making
difficult choices. Here, they have been virtually helpless,
and it has massively increased their frustration. So
speaking to the media in such raw detail yesterday, we were
told, was the first part of that strategy. It was an idea
which came from them, not the police. Likewise, it was the
McCanns who decided they would take questions for the first
time, rather than simply reading a statement.
Mr McCann
was careful to praise the Portuguese police operation but
said he could not discuss what they were doing. He also
thanked the media for its coverage of the case, perhaps the
only weapon the couple have in keeping public awareness
high. They knew that even the tiniest detail, or triggered
memory, could so easily lead to a breakthrough.
But it
hadn't come yet - or if it had, the Portuguese police were
being astonishingly relaxed about it. Quite how much
information they were giving the couple about their
investigation was unclear, although if it was anything like
the detail they had been making public, it would be scant
indeed.
At around
the time the McCanns faced the media yesterday, Portuguese
TV reported that police were "close to a conclusion" in the
inquiry. Chief Inspector Oligario Sousa said: "We have two
or three hypotheses and one in particular is very strong."
He did not reveal what it was.
A friend
of the family summed it up like this: "We have a great many
questions and not many answers." For the moment, therefore,
the McCanns had just their positive thoughts to cling to. If
only they could turn them to reality. |